Things are not getting easier here in my world, and naturally, given my track record, diet and exercise were the first things to go.
I apologize for the “woe is me” – I don’t ever want to be one of those kind of whining-about-everything-all-the-time blogs – but I feel that I have a really great readership of Run, Nikki, Run, and I want to be honest.
I’ve always had a situation with food – “you live to eat, when you should eat to live,” says my mom, sounding like a broken record each and every time – I guess it’s more of an obsession. I think about it constantly and want to eat it constantly.
So I do.
Mix that with letting my exercise regime fall to the wayside, and that’s a recipe for disaster.
I’d like to insert one of my tried and true positive reinforcements I fall back on, but “Tomorrow is another day,” “I’m back on the wagon” or whatever else I can dream up to make myself feel better just isn’t cutting it right now.
I know what I have to do, but I just can’t seem to get myself there. I read all the great blogs that I follow and get so inspired and, I’ll admit, jealous because I don’t have that willpower – and when I get it, it’s a flash in the pan.
What the hell is my problem??